Hope is for Losers

Dreams are just where you left 'em...
Bloodied,broken and face down to the ground.
Hopes are just where you left 'em...
Motionless since 1994

You are too hopeful
You are so hopeless
Hope is for losers

I didn't know we were gambling
when the cards all burned in my hands.
It takes me where I'm going...
falling down or crawling like a tear.

You are too hopeful
You are so hopeless
Hope is for losers

It's so pathetic to see try whatever I'm tryin'
It's so pathetic to see me do whatever I do
It's so pathetic to hear me say whatever I'm tryin' to say
It's so pathetic...

Ends are just where you started
Happiness was born already dead
Illusions are where you left 'em
Left to rot right in the wrong hands

You are too hopeful
You are so hopeless
Hope is for losers.

Eyes without a Gaze

I am tryin' to swallow this pain
while I wait for you to get what you deserve.
It seems like your lies like the light
in a world without eyes...
You're just like eyes without a gaze

Eyes without a gaze

I am tryin' not to wallow in this pain
while I'm washing you away like a stain
You need to steal what you feel
in a world without eyes
You're just like eyes without a gaze...

The Slow Process of Giving Up

When I bleed my words are blood
When I breathe the air is smoke
When I drink is fire
When I think I'm burning
When I stick my fingers deep in the wound I find that I've left some hate
Is time for you
now
to go and find another slave
and I know you'll find the way

I put my back against the wall
I'm afraid of blinking
I don't dare to turnaround

I think I just heard the sound of a new begginning
but it chooses letting me down.
And I know you'll find the one
and I know you'll find the way...

I try to fill this empty space
It feels like walking thru a maze
And it takes me lower
to a place I'm sober
eventhough I made a toast for the road and my glass was full of haze

Is time for you
now
to go and find another slave
And I know you'll find the haze
but I know you'll find the way

I am waiting on the side of this lonely highway
I know there's no one coming back
I put my wings inside a box
'cause I've been so empty lately
I don't even have to escape the pain,
not anymore,
'cause I am nothing,
just like you...


(December 2009)

Low Tide Reasons part II (High Tide Reasons)

Now that you are leaving
I can get rid of these feelings
This host is free now
from feedbacks you've never heard before
I'll look for something
to make my wings grow stronger
and as I go by I hear them say:
-"Hey,where are you going?"
-"I'm going where no one before"
-"Hey,where are you going?"
-"I'm gonna be like the wind"
-"Hey,where are you going?"
-"I'm going up in the sky"
-"Hey,where are you going?"
-"Trust me and come with me"

I hear their bitter sounds
contagious as I break thru the crowd
Their bitter heart-beats
resounding thru the hall like a sad song
filling up my heart with stones
like a chain that keeps me tied to the ground
As I keep sinking my wishes say:
-"Hey,where are you going?"


(November 1st 2006)

Low Tide Reasons

It might have been the Sun that's shinning outside
It might have been the fact that you are by my side
It might have been the fuckt up life that I have
It might have been the coward pupils that hide...
as well
It might have been my bruised hands who write
It might have been my jaded heart who fights
It might have been the countless empty nights
It might have been the endless signs who were right

It might have been the clouds that gather outside
It might have been the rain taht's rainning inside
It might have been a bunch of hopes who were high
It might have been the time who was painfully right
as well
It might have been the memories who lied
It might have been the poison in my drink
It might have been the nightmares in my dreams
It might have been the times I've fallen down
down
down where I can see that
they'll never reach me
they'll never reach me alive
alive
alive where I can see that
they'll never reach us
they'll never reach us alive...


(November 1st 2006)

Careless

My heart is a little flame that burns my brain
It falls like a knive everytime I feel alive
It falls like the night everytime I feel alright
I'm having troubles just to shovel all this pain

I can't believe it,
I can't believe what you just said
I cant believe it
I can't believe in what you just said

As soon as you get there call me
I will be waiting on the red phone
I've been trying to reach you for (10) years
I let it ring but you are never there to hear the call...

I can't believe it
I can't believe what you just did
I can't believe it
I can't believe in what you just did
I can't believe you
I can't believe you anymore

Careless dreaming of yourself
but the stain won't go away
and the pain won't fade away
but the rest you took away


(Red October 2006)

Breakdown Tecnique

I had a chance...a chance to loose
I had the thought to end my life
My sundried soul takes control
over my will,my needs my hope...
to waste my life...consumes my life

I've been so lost,so low,so down
that I could only look up
and as you fly
I see my dreams go down the drain
drinking pain
I'm drinking pain...

And there's no way to fade the light that shines in all your crimes
and there's no way to escape this little moment of despair
and there's no way to let this little moment go away
and there's no way to help this useless tears from fallin' down
and there's no way to help you...
and there's no way to help me...
and there's no way...
to understand why
I let this pain of mine draw the schemes
and as I let it break me at the seams
I just can only play dead
and see my life before my eyes
and there's no way to help me...
there's no way


(November 2006)

Wrong Mailbox

Dust over my thoughts
waiting the blow of your eyes
Lost under my Faith
waiting for someone to hope
Lie by the doorstep
waiting for someone to come
Today a dream died
well I guess I'll just go back to sleep
When I'm not sleeping
I am blinking my life away
Flowers watching me fade
now is worse because I'm alone
Ice growing over the wings of a chance
anyway it was trying to escape
Dazed by my thoughts
the kept me thinking I could do it

Maybe the message was not for me,
maybe I read someone else's mail,
maybe I wrote someone else's poem
maybe I took someone else's call
maybe it was just a voice in my head...

Pray to the Lord but it has no use now
Sing when the Devil sings
and if you dance while the ground is under your feet there's nothing to be afraid
and if you sing while the Sun is over your head there's nothing to be afraid

September 2006

Carnival of Intentions

I can't feel you by my side now...right now
I can't feel you by my side now...right now
I guess I'll have to go back...in time
to share the blame...with you
to share the shame...with you
for being such a waste of time
in your life like you for mine
now everyone is on your side.
How easy is for you
to leave something
to leave someone behind

I can feel you by my side now...right now
I can feel you by my side now...right now
and you can't look me in the eyes...and say:
I'll share the blame...with you
I'll share the shame...with you
Why you had to close your eyes...to this
and empty your self
to become hollow

Careless dreaming of yourself
Careless knives will cut the rope
Careless lies will drop down the weight
Careless finger on the trigger
Careless shooter on the gun
Careless bullet will take my life
This careless wounds...
you could care less...


August 2006

Home?

Burn to ashes
and then burn the ashes
mix it with wine
and pour it in glasses
Drink untill your drunk
drink untill your poisoned
keep on drinking 'till you fall unconscious
Sleep untill you dream
dream about a fire
a fire burning down the heart of the liar
Don't lie to your self
or you'll burn to ashes
we'll mix it with wine
and pour it in glasses

If I had a home I'll be coming home
but I'm so far from home...
Do I have a home?

If you wanna cry
cry untill you die
If you wanna die
don't tell to the others
The others have the light
the others have the fire
you just have the night
you just have the ashes

Do I have a home?


December 2005

:-"Kill your toys!"-said the clock

I fly
I fall
I break
I crawl
I play
I lose
I try
I fail
I see
I cry
I drink
I dry
I walk
I stumble
I seal
I sink
I think
I kneal
I hurt
and I die
Too young to be old
Too old to be young
My toys forsaken me
Too proud to look back
Too scare to look ahead
My toys are dead

Hours are running thru my veins
Watch the clock bleed
Minutes are running thru my veins
Watch the clock fade
Seconds are running thru my veins
Watch the clock die


December 2005

The world who sold the man

Waiting...
waiting untill
we say "here" and mean the same

Ashtray is full again
waiting for you
Glass is empty once again
I'm thirsty for your love

Listen...
listen to my heart
mouning everytime I'm far from you

and I can't help but fall asleep
to escape from loneliness
dreaming about you
fighting the world with me

Nothing matters if I am with you
face to face
in the world who sold the man
Nothing matters if you are with me
face to face
in the world who sold the man


May 2005

I=0 (without you here)

I don't know if I should stay
I don't know if I should stay without you here
Time goes slow
Time goes slow without you here
And in the meantime I look a picture
And in the meantime I tried to look for you
I don't know
I don't know if I should stay without you
Time goes slow
Time goes slow without you here
And in the meantime I light up a cigarrette
And in the meantime I try to look for you
but your not here
I don't know if I should stay without you here
I don't know

Love and Kisses by a Bleeding Heart

She took everything away
now I want to fall asleep
Love and kisses by a bleeding heart
now are drowning on a bottle
In silence flowers watching me fade
now is worse because I'm lonely
I hate you from the bottom of my wounds
Can you see what have you done?

Sooner or later you will have to pay your debts
and I'll be there just to show you things you can't live without
You don't know how much it hurts to lose
always
the poison is the first thing
And when I swallow killers of the pain
motionless I ride the night
Love and kisses by a bleeding heart
now are drowning in a bottle
And when I wake up
both wrong sides of the bed
smiling cuts my face

Someone else will have to play your games
'cause I won't be there
just to show things you can't ignore
Is so hard when hate speaks thru you
always
I have the bitter last word
Hate's always the bitter last word
Always my bitter heart rots
with this bitter brain thoughts

(Love and Kisses by a bleeding Heart is a cocktail,look for the recipe!)

January 2004

After-All

Is so easy to remember you
I just have to close my eyes
And after all we left behind
I am just a memory
carried by...
carried by the winds of time
and after all
what's left for us to take?
And after all we went thru
what's left to remember?
Smile and the clouds will go away
After all...after all was not that bad
Forget,forgive...the things we said
Erase the black seed in my heart
it doesn't take me anywhere to keep it there
And after all we said
and after all we left
and after all you said
After all I left

I'll try not to keep this inside
I'll try not to let this bleed
For all the love that slipt thru your hands like a wet glass
now I count the pieces on the floor
And after all we went thru
I look back and smile
And after all I left behind
...everything but you

I'll try to keep your smile
I'll fight not to lose mine
For all the times you shut the door on my face
another one opens ahead,
but you are not there


January 26th 2004