Butterflies with Metal Jaws

Eyes without a Gaze

2010-03-30T03:21:00.000-07:00

I am tryin' to swallow this pain
while I wait for you to get what you deserve.
It seems like your lies like the light
in a world without eyes...
You're just like eyes without a gaze

Eyes without a gaze

I am tryin' not to wallow in this pain
while I'm washing you away like a stain
You need to steal what you feel
in a world without eyes
You're just like eyes without a gaze...

The Slow Process of Giving Up

2010-03-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

When I bleed my words are blood
When I breathe the air is smoke
When I drink is fire
When I think I'm burning
When I stick my fingers deep in the wound I find that I've left some hate
Is time for you
now
to go and find another slave
and I know you'll find the way

I put my back against the wall
I'm afraid of blinking
I don't dare to turnaround

I think I just heard the sound of a new begginning
but it chooses letting me down.
And I know you'll find the one
and I know you'll find the way...

I try to fill this empty space
It feels like walking thru a maze
And it takes me lower
to a place I'm sober
eventhough I made a toast for the road and my glass was full of haze

Is time for you
now
to go and find another slave
And I know you'll find the haze
but I know you'll find the way

I am waiting on the side of this lonely highway
I know there's no one coming back
I put my wings inside a box
'cause I've been so empty lately
I don't even have to escape the pain,
not anymore,
'cause I am nothing,
just like you...

(December 2009)

Low Tide Reasons part II (High Tide Reasons)

2006-12-10T03:19:00.000-08:00

Now that you are leaving
I can get rid of these feelings
This host is free now
from feedbacks you've never heard before
I'll look for something
to make my wings grow stronger
and as I go by I hear them say:
-"Hey,where are you going?"
-"I'm going where no one before"
-"Hey,where are you going?"
-"I'm gonna be like the wind"
-"Hey,where are you going?"
-"I'm going up in the sky"
-"Hey,where are you going?"
-"Trust me and come with me"

I hear their bitter sounds
contagious as I break thru the crowd
Their bitter heart-beats
resounding thru the hall like a sad song
filling up my heart with stones
like a chain that keeps me tied to the ground
As I keep sinking my wishes say:
-"Hey,where are you going?"

(November 1st 2006)

Low Tide Reasons

2006-12-10T02:18:00.000-08:00

It might have been the Sun that's shinning outside
It might have been the fact that you are by my side
It might have been the fuckt up life that I have
It might have been the coward pupils that hide...
as well
It might have been my bruised hands who write
It might have been my jaded heart who fights
It might have been the countless empty nights
It might have been the endless signs who were right

It might have been the clouds that gather outside
It might have been the rain taht's rainning inside
It might have been a bunch of hopes who were high
It might have been the time who was painfully right
as well
It might have been the memories who lied
It might have been the poison in my drink
It might have been the nightmares in my dreams
It might have been the times I've fallen down
down
down where I can see that
they'll never reach me
they'll never reach me alive
alive
alive where I can see that
they'll never reach us
they'll never reach us alive...

(November 1st 2006)

Careless

2006-12-10T02:17:00.000-08:00

My heart is a little flame that burns my brain
It falls like a knive everytime I feel alive
It falls like the night everytime I feel alright
I'm having troubles just to shovel all this pain

I can't believe it,
I can't believe what you just said
I cant believe it
I can't believe in what you just said

As soon as you get there call me
I will be waiting on the red phone
I've been trying to reach you for (10) years
I let it ring but you are never there to hear the call...

I can't believe it
I can't believe what you just did
I can't believe it
I can't believe in what you just did
I can't believe you
I can't believe you anymore

Careless dreaming of yourself
but the stain won't go away
and the pain won't fade away
but the rest you took away

(Red October 2006)

Breakdown Tecnique

2006-12-10T01:48:00.000-08:00

I had a chance...a chance to loose
I had the thought to end my life
My sundried soul takes control
over my will,my needs my hope...
to waste my life...consumes my life

I've been so lost,so low,so down
that I could only look up
and as you fly
I see my dreams go down the drain
drinking pain
I'm drinking pain...

And there's no way to fade the light that shines in all your crimes
and there's no way to escape this little moment of despair
and there's no way to let this little moment go away
and there's no way to help this useless tears from fallin' down
and there's no way to help you...
and there's no way to help me...
and there's no way...
to understand why
I let this pain of mine draw the schemes
and as I let it break me at the seams
I just can only play dead
and see my life before my eyes
and there's no way to help me...
there's no way

(November 2006)

Wrong Mailbox

2006-12-09T05:10:00.000-08:00

Dust over my thoughts
waiting the blow of your eyes
Lost under my Faith
waiting for someone to hope
Lie by the doorstep
waiting for someone to come
Today a dream died
well I guess I'll just go back to sleep
When I'm not sleeping
I am blinking my life away
Flowers watching me fade
now is worse because I'm alone
Ice growing over the wings of a chance
anyway it was trying to escape
Dazed by my thoughts
the kept me thinking I could do it

Maybe the message was not for me,
maybe I read someone else's mail,
maybe I wrote someone else's poem
maybe I took someone else's call
maybe it was just a voice in my head...

Pray to the Lord but it has no use now
Sing when the Devil sings
and if you dance while the ground is under your feet there's nothing to be afraid
and if you sing while the Sun is over your head there's nothing to be afraid

September 2006

Carnival of Intentions

2006-08-19T16:42:00.001-07:00

I can't feel you by my side now...right now
I can't feel you by my side now...right now
I guess I'll have to go back...in time
to share the blame...with you
to share the shame...with you
for being such a waste of time
in your life like you for mine
now everyone is on your side.
How easy is for you
to leave something
to leave someone behind

I can feel you by my side now...right now
I can feel you by my side now...right now
and you can't look me in the eyes...and say:
I'll share the blame...with you
I'll share the shame...with you
Why you had to close your eyes...to this
and empty your self
to become hollow

Careless dreaming of yourself
Careless knives will cut the rope
Careless lies will drop down the weight
Careless finger on the trigger
Careless shooter on the gun
Careless bullet will take my life
This careless wounds...
you could care less...

August 2006

Home?

2006-05-01T13:22:00.000-07:00

Burn to ashes
and then burn the ashes
mix it with wine
and pour it in glasses
Drink untill your drunk
drink untill your poisoned
keep on drinking 'till you fall unconscious
Sleep untill you dream
dream about a fire
a fire burning down the heart of the liar
Don't lie to your self
or you'll burn to ashes
we'll mix it with wine
and pour it in glasses

If I had a home I'll be coming home
but I'm so far from home...
Do I have a home?

If you wanna cry
cry untill you die
If you wanna die
don't tell to the others
The others have the light
the others have the fire
you just have the night
you just have the ashes

Do I have a home?

December 2005

:-"Kill your toys!"-said the clock

2006-05-01T13:05:00.000-07:00

I fly
I fall
I break
I crawl
I play
I lose
I try
I fail
I see
I cry
I drink
I dry
I walk
I stumble
I seal
I sink
I think
I kneal
I hurt
and I die
Too young to be old
Too old to be young
My toys forsaken me
Too proud to look back
Too scare to look ahead
My toys are dead

Hours are running thru my veins
Watch the clock bleed
Minutes are running thru my veins
Watch the clock fade
Seconds are running thru my veins
Watch the clock die

December 2005

The world who sold the man

2006-05-01T12:50:00.000-07:00

Waiting...
waiting untill
we say "here" and mean the same

Ashtray is full again
waiting for you
Glass is empty once again
I'm thirsty for your love

Listen...
listen to my heart
mouning everytime I'm far from you

and I can't help but fall asleep
to escape from loneliness
dreaming about you
fighting the world with me

Nothing matters if I am with you
face to face
in the world who sold the man
Nothing matters if you are with me
face to face
in the world who sold the man

May 2005

I=0 (without you here)

2006-05-01T12:24:00.000-07:00

I don't know if I should stay
I don't know if I should stay without you here
Time goes slow
Time goes slow without you here
And in the meantime I look a picture
And in the meantime I tried to look for you
I don't know
I don't know if I should stay without you
Time goes slow
Time goes slow without you here
And in the meantime I light up a cigarrette
And in the meantime I try to look for you
but your not here
I don't know if I should stay without you here
I don't know

Love and Kisses by a Bleeding Heart

2006-05-01T11:56:00.000-07:00

She took everything away
now I want to fall asleep
Love and kisses by a bleeding heart
now are drowning on a bottle
In silence flowers watching me fade
now is worse because I'm lonely
I hate you from the bottom of my wounds
Can you see what have you done?

Sooner or later you will have to pay your debts
and I'll be there just to show you things you can't live without
You don't know how much it hurts to lose
always
the poison is the first thing
And when I swallow killers of the pain
motionless I ride the night
Love and kisses by a bleeding heart
now are drowning in a bottle
And when I wake up
both wrong sides of the bed
smiling cuts my face

Someone else will have to play your games
'cause I won't be there
just to show things you can't ignore
Is so hard when hate speaks thru you
always
I have the bitter last word
Hate's always the bitter last word
Always my bitter heart rots
with this bitter brain thoughts

(Love and Kisses by a bleeding Heart is a cocktail,look for the recipe!)

January 2004

After-All

2006-05-01T11:40:00.000-07:00

Is so easy to remember you
I just have to close my eyes
And after all we left behind
I am just a memory
carried by...
carried by the winds of time
and after all
what's left for us to take?
And after all we went thru
what's left to remember?
Smile and the clouds will go away
After all...after all was not that bad
Forget,forgive...the things we said
Erase the black seed in my heart
it doesn't take me anywhere to keep it there
And after all we said
and after all we left
and after all you said
After all I left

I'll try not to keep this inside
I'll try not to let this bleed
For all the love that slipt thru your hands like a wet glass
now I count the pieces on the floor
And after all we went thru
I look back and smile
And after all I left behind
...everything but you

I'll try to keep your smile
I'll fight not to lose mine
For all the times you shut the door on my face
another one opens ahead,
but you are not there

January 26th 2004

3,2,1...0

2006-04-14T03:53:00.000-07:00

This is the countdown to the last kiss I'll give to you
This is the bottle where I put the blood from my broken heart
This is the glass where I pour the blood to drink it
This is the taste of the bitter last kiss on your lips
I'll empty my heart ...I'll empty my heart over your lips
'cause there's no time left...
3,2,1...Goodbye
This ain't the last time that I let all the questions starve
This ain't the last time that you catch me in "what could have been"
Decisions cry because they were too late
This is the bottle where I put all the tears we cried
Tears in the glass,tears in glass I drink for the past
'cause there's no time left...
3,2,1...Goodbye

Spring 2003

Where my Hopes Drown

2006-04-14T03:04:00.000-07:00

Can anyone show me that life is not all sadness?
'cause I'm heading to the end and I'm overspeeding
I've been drunk in my own thoughts
is like a needle bed
where the pain becomes my blood
and my blood becomes my word
but words are meaningless when you are alone

Can anyone tell me that life is not all sorrow?
'cause I'm jumping off the bridge and I set the rope on fire
I've been drinking my own thoughts
Now I'm poisoned
and the poison blurs my eyes
and my eyes make me weak
and weakness is the sea where my hopes drown

Can anyone take me and close my eyes
'cause I need to fall asleep
in your "Disposal Glory"
I am nailed to the floor of loneliness

I've been trapped in my own thoughts
is like an empty prison
I've been sleeping in my thoughts
and I'm not awakening

January 2002 (U.S.A)

Paranoia Workshop

2006-04-14T01:59:00.000-07:00

Windows are broken by the stone of denial
Doors are locked with the shackle of wounds
Give "honey deceits" to the drones of good times
and close your eyes to the flashes of light
in the dark alley of remorse
Give the kiss of your knees to the grounds of impotence
while coward pupils hide where lazy eyelids drown
and by the failing side you can hear a graceful sound
It's madness,a-ha,so you don't have to bother anymore

What you feel it's what you fear
Defy the logical traumas,defy the traumas of logic
sleep over the plain line of coma trading minds with Bohdah

Your face is so pale
and cold
Your eyes have lost all the colors
down the drain of dillusion

April 2000

Let them be Pretty

2006-04-14T01:47:00.000-07:00

And I know for who begins love
and I know for who begins not
Beyond this magnet lies
lies the sense of meanings

And beyond the sky there's Heaven
full of lies
and beyond there's nothing
I am there waiting for you
'cause I feel save

With the calm of cleanliness
loneliness here stays inmaculate
forgiving sentences
forgetting faces

'cause beyond your blood and skin there's you
and beyond your purity
You are there waiting asleep
for this walls to come down

November 2000

The Sound of your Skin

2006-04-14T01:38:00.000-07:00

You told me "gasoline"
with a gaze of fire
You told me "gasoline"
enough to ride a car
on a highway that never reaches the horizon...

...the horizon of you
Your horizon
crosses my fate
far before my eyes
and so I look for a reason
not for an excuse
to stand still and watch

...the horizon of you
your horizon...

Far beyond the seas
by the realms of your skin
announcing divine collisions
there it lies...

your horizon...the horizon of you

September 16th 2000

It's written now...

2006-04-14T01:34:00.000-07:00

It's written now...
we are reading
It's paved now...
we are riding
for ever in love
with our needs
and enemies
and as they wrote
we are reading...

September 8th 2000

Sunbeams Thru Water

2006-04-14T01:27:00.000-07:00

Sunbeams thru water
they're slowly sinking
I ain't blinking
I want to see them
reach the bottom
I want to see light
I have heard of it
like whispers thru water
I have seen them once
like raindrops on the surface

Light races to escape from me

Into this shades they brought
I'm proud
If I can see
there's light

August 6th 2000

Velvet Deluxe

2006-04-14T00:56:00.000-07:00

You took the way
that I've been searching
...too slowly
And here we are
I'm the last
...so softly

I can't believe,I can't believe

Can't believe what it seems to release you
Can't release what it seems to believe you
Candles lead the way to tragedy...

You told about the mirrors of fate
but that was just a lie...the ones I made
You told me about the colors of fire
staring to the Sun I burnt my eyes
I can't believe,I can't believe

January 2000

The wine of a Hangman called Tomorrow

2006-04-14T00:26:00.000-07:00

I know time will cherish our face
but I see a little kid stand right by my side
It's me,drawing the course of my past
while he waits to become I

I close his hands/because the water running will never come back to wash his feet...
I wish I saw it dry
The monster-shades underneath your bed/I killed 'em all for you
You'll see how the castles you've made in the sand/will always always fall
Escape with the rocket you've made out of brass/I wish you luck

I know,my friends,the pain will embrace us sometime
but we'll share the cups of shame
filled up with the wine of our lives
and tomorrow will bring a thousand and one memories...

And I wanted to feed them
but they wanted to eat all
When they saw it was over
they went for my eyes
but I wanted to feed them
while I could
but I want to feed them
while I can

What is this?
I ran so fast
that I left my self behind
Should I wait
or go back?

March 2000

Small Subtleties

2006-04-13T23:59:00.000-07:00

Tiny ants to entertain you
Who's the ant?
The ant is you

Tiny eyes look straight
What's sorrounding?
You walk in circles

Tiny hands shut the mouths
close the eyes
move the tides

Tiny hearts fell in love
with theirselves
and it broke their hearts

February 2000

NAPHTA

2006-04-11T13:27:00.000-07:00

Her last words were driven by hazard
My last hopes embraced by the distance

And I wanted to give her stars
but she wanted to make them suns
And I wanted to give her blue
but she wanted to make it night
And she had to give me sand
and I had to make a sandwatch
And she had to give
my time to receive

I took all the feathers
from the sand
and learn all my lessons
with bloody hands
In the air
all things I left
waiting for her
waiting to move

Tonight the Sun shines so dark
and guides me
into a new morning of the past
where I born traped
delivered into fevers
shiver down
in the cradle of all motion
Pure I'm retaining you

You could sell
this burning hell
that the wind does not carry away
I just want
something
to complete the moments you emptied
Memories
statues of ice
I am frozen inside
Everything you left
remains the same
and no one is allowed to move it
Loneliness
has a new sense
since the moment I met you
Emptiness fades in
I fade away
the words do the same

January '99

X=13

2006-04-11T13:22:00.000-07:00

13 shames are locked
inside
13 ways are open
ahead

13
ours,uneven
outcome
I'll wait for her 13th kiss

December 13th 1998

Altar of the Horizons

2006-04-11T13:08:00.000-07:00

White worms appear where I've been
born of the rotten sweat of bitterness
bed of the sleepless dusk of questions
bread of the mournful dawn of answers
altar of the horizons
pith of wisedom
Sun of Suns
endarks the moving ones

I bought my defeat for you to win
feigned smile for your greatness
silence evens me
Quiet tears are built to windows
for my eyes to see thru
to give that grey scent
that prevails the movement

And the beggar is proud of cold
in his thoughtless ease of air
An ilusion wich dries defiles
but is bleach for the ink delight
Hear me laugh from the lust spell
with my mirror skin
Your golden love makes me cry
angel hair for you
Slave like a wishing well
drowned in my own self

Cut my tongue
words are gone
to die
in the womb from the cold

10/16/1998

Sagitarius Yashmine

2006-04-06T21:41:00.000-07:00

You are a star
in my ice sky
With your winter lips
you kiss the lies
to freeze and everlast
in the silence
you are the queen
of everything
that you can't hear
The sounds obey
the sway of your eyes
I crawl
Who cares,anyway?
Ends of the world
that I only see
Nobody dies with me,so...

With the faith of shade
I'll cherish all that fades
to difference
the sadness from your love
and stay beyond
the grimace of your face
when you went there
and use the tool
to break my heart

I'll never know why
I'll never shatter more than this

Right now is like a storm
starving to face the Sun
eager to bring it down
to even the humble

We are creatures
from both sides
of the mirror's lies
Death never had
scent of roses
Your Sun is freezing me
and days are so cold

Alice June

2006-04-06T21:03:00.000-07:00

In darkness I was found
In darkness I was left
just to reveal secrets of the pain
deadly for sense
where I'll never head

And I saw the wings that make me small
And I prayed the wind:-"please,don't take her away"
but she spanked me with her metal feathers

Never say goodbye
escape
Never say goodbye
hide
Never say goodbye
never

I saw my self smile
As punishment I eat sand
with the softness of her hand
with the shame of the moon
I'll always remember June
(you)
in December

And the stars we are counting are the same
and I wonder why they always cherish her first
I wish the sky was made out of mercury
so I could see her face reflected in it

Her face reflected in the sky
She dies,but only for sight
Try not to say goodbye
and I'll promise I won't cry

Her metal ways to float made me so frail
Although I'm brave I still alive
so let me send you in a feather my blood
so let me send you in a letter my love

The heat of truth doesn't lie
Ally in Cupid's fire nights
Alive in Venus cristal eyes
How?How to say goodbye?

I...don't...know

July 1998

Dirt loves Cleanliness

2006-04-06T20:55:00.000-07:00

Staying in your life
is staining your life,I see
Dirt in your life
is a color in my hands
Fading your light
is dazing your lies,I claim
Dirt loves cleanliness
in this broken-hearted trash

I need to clean my dirty wings
to separate the truth from you
To simplify you have to die
I sell my sores full of light

Scorn fields rising
to show what's beauty in pain
When there's no room enough
Death,I send you a gift
I send you in a box
my dirt and cleanliness

Clean your self
I buy your dirt

11/15/1997

beLIEve ME

2006-04-06T20:45:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna tell the truth
believe me
You have to lie to tell the truth
believe me
And every truth is a lie
believe me
I wouldn't lie to you
believe me

09/20/1997

Maxi-Rice Machine

2006-04-06T19:56:00.000-07:00

All I see is green light lines
All I see is the face of my thoughts
All I see is scarecrows waiting for revenge
on everyfield
and all is fear

And I want to break your cristal veil
And I want to burn your plastic scales
And I want to dry the blood in your face
'cause it keeps far away

All is fear now that I must sleep
All is fear now that I'm asleep
I'm afraid to stare back to my self
and discover that I'm not my self...
anymore

Take out your helmet
I wanna see if your face is made out of spider webs
Take out the clothing
that keep us far away

We are rice
that fell from the sky
into a machine
that made us big

August 1st 1997

SEA (a.k.a Daemonium Bellus)

2006-04-06T19:32:00.000-07:00

Everyone is taken away
to the pink background
Everyone is taken away
to the distance of never

Tell me my friend,who's going away?
It's me who's staying and you who's moving?
I'll tell you my friend who's gonna stay
Can you tell me how's the river?
Tell me my friend,who's going away?
It's you who's staying and me who's moving?
I'll tell you my friend who's gonna stay
I can tell you how's the Sea

April 1997

SAT

2006-04-06T19:12:00.000-07:00

Come tomorrow
today I'm not the one I used to
I'm made of foam.
Sipping paper from the space
Lemon draws
a circle lurch
Lovely I crumble
into sand
The smoke between the spots
is fever parfum
Strange language I speak
and now I understand
High
is where I let it happen
Twice
I had to say goodbay
I
I see it in my eyes
Hide
the loot in your mind
Gnash your teeth
with alien leaves
The freezing goad
is trying to make you feel
SAT

I see the waterfall,
is like a rope tied to the lake

04/14/1997

Fade'o'matic

2006-04-06T18:47:00.000-07:00

I'm a little bug
in your morning apple
I'm a little stroke
in the whale's eye
I'm a little coin
in your pocket full of bills
I'm a little nail
where you hitched your shirt

Do you need me
as I need you?
Do I need you
to brake my self?
I don't need you
You don't need me
I don't need you
to brake my self

10/15/1996

Jar

2006-04-06T17:50:00.000-07:00

She's a nightmare on the ceiling
She's the day of the year
She's an acid passion fruit
She's a candle about to melt
She's the maybe when you are sure
She's a teardrop from nowhere
She's the endless a couple of times
She's so smooth...a chinese ming jar

08/23/1996

Introduction

2006-04-05T19:46:00.000-07:00

This blogg is (or will be) a compilation of my poetry and lyrics in english since year 1996 'till today.I decided to call it "Butterflies with Metal Jaws" 'cause that's the prevailing feeling in most of the poetry.You know what's to feel butterflies on your stomach/tummy/belly.Now imagine those butterflies eating you from the inside with metal jaws...